Apparently it wasn't over till the directing teacher sings, so even though a diploma performance is usually only a one time thing, we presented our diploma for a second time. Yes, feeling special.
But how was opening night? Perfect. I continue to have stains of slashed wrists, neck pains from lying still in a cold tub on stage for 10 minutes while waiting for the audience to find seats for their behinds, and the wonderful feeling of emptiness after we had taken our bows. Everything went roughly according to plan, and being on stage felt right. During my first solo something hit me. No, it wasn't a shoe or glass bottle thrown from the audience, but is was a feeling. A strong feeling of belongingness. It wasn't just me, I mean it was barely me at all. It was my character, the stage, people looking, staring at me. Even though the sudden tears in my eyes blurred my view, my mind was clear and I felt like I had found my place. In dance, in movement, near people, touching people, colliding into people both physically and mentally. Specifically on stage? Perhaps that too, but that wasn't the most important thing to me. I got to do what I love, and in the end of the day that's what counts.
In addition to that, I wanted to touch the audience and in that we succeeded. Our eyes weren't the only ones drowning in H2O. We managed to stop the audience for a while, all eyes on us, and we got through to them. What we did was affective, and brave. This isn't only my imperial verdict but also the assessors'. They were taken with our work as a whole and to quote one of the evaluators: "You have the acting bug within you." I don't think it can get much better than that.
Opening night was about a week ago, and the second performance alias closing night was a few days ago. Now, this didn't feel as right. Our opening scene was my character lying in the tub wrists slashed open, and the other character sitting in a chair, staring into the distance with empty eyes. On opening night this succeeded, but for the second time it didn't. The audience came in as they pleased, and we weren't ready. 15 minutes before the start our actors were missing, the stage wasn't ready, the props were missing and we were running around like little kids on Riddlin. We rushed on stage, the show begun and our characters were left on backstage and unfortunately they came on stage only half the way. No, it wasn't the worst thing since High School Musical on Stage, it was still good and we shocked and mentally harassed people and made them cry (which has diabolically been our goal all along) but we weren't as deep in our characters as before, and that has its effect, for sure.
We still have our assessments to write, but this project is more or less coming to its end.
This is it, for now.
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